The tears suspend.

10:38am: Where are you Jesus?
So. My band played at the spot last nite.. It was fun.. decent turnout. Marathon was a goodtime.. as always. I played touchmaster with nudie chicks, and Emily gave me quarters to do so. HA!
The pressing plant has halted our CD's again. They are a bunch of fucking douchebags... Its kind of a long story.. but. Whatever. They fucking blow. Its going to be a while...

I stayed over at Emily's dorm last nite.. Had some quite interesting conversations with her suitemates, and her roomate in particular. Made me really dig deep in my memory bank. I could talk about shaving pubic hair for hours.. Im pretty sure. Emily and I also both agreed.. NO ANAL SEX. Pinky swore on it. Sheeeyaa...

Im looking at this dope new celly on ebay... its freekin hot... Its a pocket pc.. windows xp, voice activated dialing, camera.. mp3.. all that shit. It has a keyboard too for surfing the internet and emailing. Its hot shit. Check it out!

I also decided that I am taking Emily to the Poconos. Look at the room I am getting-"The Bears Den". Freekin A.. The house is gorgeous. BAH... but word.. I dont really have too much more to say......

<3Stevo

12:23am: "P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C"...
Well.. If the definition of pathetic was moving on and finding something (someone) a million times better than Ive ever had, then. I guess Im pretty god damn pathetic.. Sorry Ive actually found happiness, and security. And.. well someone that wouldnt cheat on me either..
Anyways..
Radio Shack is a great great job. In January Ill be eligible for employee cell phone plan.. In March I can get full insurance coverage.. health, dental, optical.. you know. Plus, automobile and school loans at super low intrest rates if I desire to take advantage of these.. In January of 2006 Ill be eligible for stock options and 401k... Things seem to be folding together very well in my life...
Ive been on the sales floor for 4 days.. Ive made my quota everyday, plus Ive sold 4 sprint phones, and a Satelleite system.. Numerous scanners.. service plans.. etc..
Ive made $80 in spiffs alone this week. Thats like 2 full days of work at McDonalds. Then.. all of my commissions on top of that. I need to get my direct deposit underway.. bah.
Today I started my one day a week deal at McDonald's, of course I was late. I set my alarm for 5am, because I had to be to work at 6... Emily got up and shut it off!! Ha!! Aparently I was awake.. or so she says.. ha.. Who knows.. It doesnt matter.. I think Im just keeping this job through the holidays for some extra money..

Im glad to see some of my other friends at McDonalds are close, or have gotten new jobs that are also a million times better.. Ive made a lot of great friends at McDonalds, and Sam is a great guy to work for... its been a great experience, and its really a good place to work but. Its time to move on.


Emily and I talked about going on vacation haha.. I hope we actually can. Id like to get out for a while. Im willing to take a week or whatever off. I dont care. ha. Im going on cheaptickets.com as soon as Im done typing this.

OK. Im done typing this.
Uh.
Yeah. 16 hours.. Didnt see daylight.. I dont think anyone can top that! Right Emily?!HAHA~!@
<3Stevo

7:14pm: You've got questions, I've got answers.
I started at Radio Shack today. It was kinda boring, I didnt get on the sales floor like I had wanted to. But... whatever. I got the formalities done and over with.. so I suppose thats good. IM ready to start doing half the work I was at McDonald's, and making at least twice as much. SO. I need to start selling.

Erin's holloween party was pretty fun the other night. Emily and I went together.. she dressed as a tourist.. she looked so geeky.. so damn cute. I was a fratboy... I wore a baseball shirt with the 3/4 sleeves, and I drew a SFE logo on the shirt, a seashell necklace, two gold clip on earrings, tight jeans with whiskers, and I did my hair all messy. It was freeking classic. Ill have a picture up soon.

Today is Emily and I's 3 month deally. Its sweet because, I dont think Ive ever spent this much time around a female and not gotten in a fight with her..
Kind of a coincidence.. dont you think?

The fake ID I ordered will hopefully be here this week, unless Im getting scammed. I hope not.. but.. whatever. shit happens.

My band's CD's better get here soon, we are playing at Fredonia State on the 11th, so. They had better be here.. damn quick.

OTher than all that and trimming my pubic hair yesterday not much exciting has been going on... So..
holler..

<3Steve

2:16am: Drunken weekend- and WE LOST HOPPITY!
Im going to try and be conscise here.
-This weekend was probably the most drunken weekend Ive had in a long long time. My band played at BJ's on Thursday night.. It was a blast. Good times, free drinks- and rock and roll. Emily and a couple of her friends, as well as my parents were amongst the crowd.. they were the only ones who mattered though. I then followed that night up with an all you can drink Natty Ice party at my apartment the next night. $5... It was a lot of fun and even Mindi and Nitasha came to see us from Canisius!

-I need to find out when the hell I am officially starting at Radio Shack. I filled out all of my hiring papers etc.. my references are verified.. so. I need to call or something, and find out what the hell is going on. Because, I need out of McDonalds.

-My band's CD release show is Sunday, and I dont think the CD's will be in from the pressing plant in time. Shitty I know.. but. what can you do. Go anyways. Itll be lots of fun!

-My side band "Get Back Up" now has a bass player, and we should be rockin out in your town shortly. We are your source for textbook hardcore. Watch out buffalo.

-I have a date tomorrow with Emily, and Im not so sure what we are going to do, other than go out to eat.. somewhere. She is the best girlfriend in the world.. so I assume she'll come up with something awesome.

-I spent like 3 days making all of my old entries in this thing private. It was time consuming, and. Almost- depressing at the same time. I read a lot of my old entries and crap... Its amazing how people change, and how they are sinacle and so inconsiderate. Childish, if you will. I wish I could shake my ex's hand and just thank her for putting me through all that shit, because I have learned so much, and. Im not such a hardass anymore. It really worked out for the better... ask Emily :)

Enough. Im done typing. I have to work soon.
check out the photo gallery... http://community.webshots.com/user/apt3b
Im adding new ones in tonite and prolly tomorrow!!

4:39pm: Not that anyone cares...
Layer 1:
Name: Steve
Birth date: April 9th 1985
Current Occupation: Swing Manager at McDonalds (But, pursuing a position as sales associate at Radio Shack ah ah ah)
Current Location: Above BJ's, My Bedroom
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Just Brown for now
Height: 5' 6"
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: Aries

Layer 2:
Your heritage: Mostly German
The shoes you wore today: Black work shoes and my brown and tan Vans
Your weaknesses: Um? Spending money?
Your fears: Heights, Bees...
Your perfect pizza: Its gotta have like.. mushrooms and sausage.. and peppers.. all the good stuff..
Goal you'd like to achieve: Just one? Perhaps doing something with music.. being successful in life.

Layer 3:
Your most overused phrase on AIM: The kissing emoticon
Your thoughts first waking up: I dont want her to leave!!
Your best physical feature: Legs.
Your bedtime: Usually a lot later than I should.. usually.. about 5 hours before the time I have to be to work the next day
Worst feeling: Getting dissed for a cokehead? I guess anything within that realm.

Layer 4:
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds bitches
Single or group dates: Single.
Adidas or Nike: This is tough..Adidas
Shorts or jeans: Shorts
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
Band-aid or leave it be: Leave it be

Layer 5:
Smoke: Not anymore
Cuss: Too much
Sing: At work..
Have a crush: Ha.. yeah..
Do you think you've been in love: Psh.. yeah.. Once.
Want to go to college: Depends on a couple things.
Like high school: When I was there.. no..
Want to get married: Ha.. yeah. But I think the thought of me being married brings some people to hysterical laughter
Believe in yourself: Certainly.
Get motion sickness: No
Think you're attractive: Not in the least
Think you're a health freak: HA!
Get along with your parents: Yup
Play an instrument: A couple of them

Layer 6:
Drank alcohol: NO! (oh cmon you guys know me better than this)
Done a drug: yep
Gone to the mall: Yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Defintiely
Eaten sushi: Sushimi, yes...
Been on stage: Ha.. yeah.
Gone skating: Skateboarding.. yes.
Made homemade cookies: I like to bake.
Gone skinny dipping: One of the few things I havent done.
Dyed your hair: Way too many times
Stolen anything: A pack of football cards about 10 years ago

Layer 7:
Played a game that required removal of clothing: Yes
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Well.. yeah.
Been caught "doing something": Such as?
Been called a tease: Yeah.. and a "bone dipper" whatever that is.
Gotten beaten up: no
Changed who you were to fit in: Ha.. no way.

Layer 8:
Age you hope to be married: mid/late 20's.
Numbers and Names of Children: 2.. both Steve, no matter the gender
Describe your dream wedding: I dont dream about weddings.
How do you want to die: Eating a big mac.
What country would you most like to visit: Germany..

Layer 9:
Number of drugs taken illegally: 2
Number of people I could trust with my life: I trust no one.
Number of CDs that I own: Too many to count
Number of piercings: None.. however. Im "the only one in the band without ink or piercings" so.. I think Im due.
Number of tattoos: 0
Number of times I lied: I dont lie.. I used to lie a lot to Janna though.
Number of scars on my body: Are we counting just physical scars? Because I think I have more emotional ones...
Number of things in my past that I regret: I dont regret anything.
Last Cigarette: A few months ago
Last Alcoholic Drink: Yesterday
Last Car Ride: Well.. an actual.. RIDE.. was home from the comix cafe with Emily
Last Kiss: Emily, yesterday
Last Good Cry: Just a little over 2 months ago. (Ironic)
Last Library Book checked out: Probably like. the prince book I took out when I was a freshman
Last Movie Seen in Theatres: Collateral.. with Emily
Last Book Read: I hate reading.. but it was probably like.. Fences, my senior year of high school.
Last Cuss Word Uttered: fuck
Last Beverage Drank: Orange juice
Last Food Consumed: Double Cheeseburger at like 3am
Last Crush: Emily
Last Phone Call: Emily
Last TV Show Watched: Aquateen Hungerforce
Last Time Showered: sometime yesterday
Last CD Played: The Bled-Pass the Flask
Last Item Bought: Seasons 1 and 2 of Family guy, Season 1 of Aquateen and the new Further Seems Forever
Last Download: Tom Jones-Its not unusual
Last Annoyance: Having to work the overnight
Last Disappointment: Being late to the Comix Cafe
Last Thing Written: Directions to the Comix Cafe
Last Key Used: backspace
Last Word Spoken: day
Last Sleep: Just waking up now.
Last IM: Drew.. on my cell phone
Last Sexual Fantasy: Ha.. when was it, or what was it?
Last Weird Encounter: When some guy asked me if I thought I was a 70's porn star on the overnight
Last Ice Cream Eaten: ice cream at China King yesterday
Last Time Amused: This morning at work..
Last Time In love: Um. I think I still am? I dont know.. I cant really put deadlines, and certain dates to correlate with my periods of falling in and out of love...
Last Time Hugged: Emily
Last Time Scolded: Well. NOt in a long time.
Last Time Resentful: Meh..
Last Chair Sat In: Computer Chair.
Last Lipstick Used: Uh.. Emily's lipgloss rubs on my lips.. usually some fruity stuff or something.
Last Underwear Worn: Plaid...
LastShirt Worn: Volcom


I think thats all for today.... I need to get ready for the day... Emily should be calling soon.. and Im in my effing underwear.
<3Stevo

6:35pm: Magic the gathering is for fags.
I just bought the new further seems forever cd... wow. Another new singer for them, but. Overall. A great cd... even though a year and a half ago i wouldnt have been cought dead listening to them, or anything like them.
There are 3 acoustic versions of previous songs on the cd at the very end... very very good.
I also picked up seasons 1 and 2 of Family Guy, and season 1 of Aquateen Hungerforce. So, anyone interested in getting drunk and watching those with me, is more than welcomed.

I had a great date with Emily yesterday, we went to the Erie Zoo, and got in for free. Then we went to Fridays, and I ate so much I felt like I was going to puke.. Then Emily spotted the big ("round") movie theatre so we went and watched "Collateral".. and came back here.. watched some Family Guy and went to bed... It was amazing!!
We're hanging out tomorrow too, which Im pumped for.
Someone just knocked on the door, asked if I smoked cigarettes, and when I said no, they walked away..
HA.
I love this place.

Anyways. Shit shit shit.
My bands cd will be out next month.. keep your eyes and ears peeled for Remember Me playing in your town.. we have a tenative show at BJ's on the 14th, and our cd release show is the 24th at adams art gallery in dunkirk. So... bring your dance shoes, its gonna be fun.

IM out.
<3Stevo

2:48am: Fraternities, Frat Boys, College, Coke, Crack, Dope, and Jailbirds
Well.
Ive decided to at least TRY and start writing in this thing again. I figure I have good reason to now... well. Moreso than I did. Granted. Embarassing Ex's is always fun entertainment. Between being left for Drugdealers, rapists, guys with extra body parts and wanted men... I think the fun and games are over. Ive wreaked enough havoc.

Just figure Id let everyone who doesnt see me that often, and who just used to communicate with me through here know, that Im still alive, and well.

Today my girlfriend woke me up at 6 (SIX) and let me know she was leaving, and I went back to sleep until I had to work at 11. Work was stupid as usual. TOnite was Mac nite.. we sold 875 in the 3 hour long special. What fun. I then went to CVS, picked up a 30 pack of Icehouse (yeah, its shit. But. Im poor), called Emily, then went to band practice until about 12.

I think Im going to Radio Shack on Saturday to see whats up with my job there. Then I want to make a trip to Verizon and see what I can do about a job over there. I need to get a good job on lock, so I can start saving for various... goals I have. -yawn-

The Gym Class Heroes played downstairs tonite, which Im kind of sad I missed out on, they always are a fun time. The Code is also playing in Buffalo tomorrow with the Suicide Machines, and I cant believe I have to miss it. I LOVE seeing the Suicide Machines, and of course our buddies the Code...

The band got off of tour last weekend, it was a blast.
Pics here ----> http://www.geocities.com/drsquarters/blessyourtitsweekend

I have a date on Sunday! With Emily! We need some ideas. Help!
Thats it for now. Im fucking beat. I work tomorrow too.. shittttty.....
<3Stevo
and..
The steve AOL quote of the day:
tearssuspend: what an effing loser
m0nd1m00re: yeah no kidding


Also.. Ignore any of the entries prior to this one.